Tuesday, December 22, 2009

The Beginning...

Today marks the beginning of a journey.
A very special journey.
A journey that only God could have planned.
He is mapping a path for our family.
A forever family...

November 1, 2009: We had suffered our third miscarriage and it seemed our dreams of having three children were ebbing away. For the past 2 1/2 years we had tried to get pregnant; enduring many tests and fertility treatments. Month after month, our hopes ended in heartbreak. After this recent loss, Jeff came to me and asked if I would consider adopting a daughter. We had both wanted a daughter so bad to complete our family. Adopting had always been a dream of mine, but I hadn't realized God was opening his heart to this dream as well. With tears running down my cheeks, I hugged him and without a moment's thought, said yes! Yes to a daughter... yes to giving a sister to my boys... yes to following God's tug on our hearts... yes to giving a little girl her forever family...

We are such at peace now. We both feel like this heavy burden has been lifted. Looking back, we both realized that God had planned the last two years perfectly! He had a daughter for us all along... we were just looking in the wrong place! We had put our trust in doctors and medicine, when all along we should have put our trust in Him! He knew what was best for us, but He had to let us experience the last two years in order to strengthen us for our journey to become adoptive parents. He had to allow our hearts to break so He could remold them and place that passion to adopt in them. Its impossible to describe the joy and excitement we feel! We know He has placed this in our hearts. We know the journey ahead will not be easy. It will be filled with endless piles of paperwork, disappointments, unexpected twists and turns, and long waits. But we know that at the end of our journey will be waiting our daughter. An incredible gift that God had waiting for us all along.