Merry Christmas... again

Last year I posted this video on our blog just after Christmas. My friend Anni had told me about it and I was very touched by it. At that point, we were just beginning our journey. We hadn't even submitted our formal application yet, but we knew that God was leading us down the path towards our daughter.

The last time I posted this video, I wrote "It is very probable that our daughter is not even born yet, but I still had a few moments at Christmas this year that I wished she were in our arms and home already. I will definitely be playing this song next Christmas again!"

Fast forward one year. It is now Christmas once again and definitely much, much harder this year not having her here. I feel in my heart our angel has been born. I feel connected to her somehow and I wish more than anything that I could hold her this year at Christmas. Even though I know that God's timing is perfect, my heart aches as I think about how true these lyrics are...

It's Christmas time again, but you're not home
Your family is here and yet you're somewhere else alone
And so tonight I pray that God will come and hold you in his arms
And tell you from my heart I wish you Merry Christmas

Next year my dear daughter.... next year those lyrics will reflect the end of the song and they will proclaim that it's Christmas time again and you're finally home. Until then... merry christmas.